EXCAVATIO

The first stage is exploration. You stop running and start looking around. Not for nostalgia. For understanding: where you took a wrong turn, where you stopped recognizing yourself, at what moment you began to play someone else's role.

EXCAVATIO is the archaeology of your decisions. You go down to understand which stones in the foundation of your life you placed, and which were brought by others. And the main thing — what can be removed without fear that everything will collapse.

Here you remember not "how painful it was," but "who I was when I still hadn't learned to lie to myself." Before you started playing someone else's roles. Before you decided that a man has no right to be honest with himself.